WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES
When I close my eyes, I can see you so clearly
Reliving the memories of you is second nature now
All I do is search my heart and
Carefully choose the memory for the day
These memories are both a saving grace and
Everlasting reminder of the stabbing numbness within my heart
Memories of the innocence of your eyes shining so brightly
Memories of the sound of your laughter so pure
Memories of the mere miracle of you
Memories of you the most important part of my life
No one can see you the way I can, when I close my eyes
When I close my eyes, I can see you so clearly
I can see the wind ruffling your hair
I can see you playing in the rain
I can see you peacefully floating on water without a care in the world
I can see you smile when a wish spoken by you has come true
No one can see you the way I can, when I close my eyes
When I close my eyes, I can see you so clearly BUT
I cannot hold you in my arms
I cannot surprise you with kisses on your cheek
I cannot tenderly touch your face
Resenting these can nots because
They are more than I can handle but
Without these memories I cannot be with you
So with my love, hopes, and dreams
I will not be lonely for you for
When I close my eyes, I see you
It's been 43 days since you grew your angel wings. Each day that passes does not bring me any comfort. I am only surviving by all the memories we had together. I never realized how many we had.
Do you remember when I was taking you and Laren to school (Brookfield) one icing morning and I was driving down Lee's Corner road and I hit an ice patch.........spun around the middle of road; bounced off one curb and hit the other curb across the street? And you said DO IT AGAIN MOM.......
All of my memories are so precious to me and they keep your memory alive within me forever. No one will take those away from me!
Do you remember the time when you were in Cub Scouts with Austin and we went camping in WV??? Sharman and I were in the cabin and you and Austin were outside in a tent with the other scouts. It was so cold that night and you both came inside and slept on the floor. You weren't about the stay outside in the middle of November. You didn't care what anyone else thought. You were smart enough to come inside where it was warm and toasty. I so glad we had so much fun.
Since the first day of your passing I keep hearing you sing to me when you where very young about the "Silly Old Ant". I hear it over and over again in my mind. I'm so glad we have so many memories. I love you very much, Mommy.
I was cleaning your room over the weekend and came across the ticket stubb to the Aerosmith concert; it made me smile along with everything else you saved. I will treasure everything and place them your Memory Box.
Do you recall the time you were riding your bike at Briarton and Tommy (the bully)ran into your bike with his? Your helmet hit the pavement and you slide on your chin. Your Dad and Tom took you to the hospital (I had to stay behind with Laren because she was a baby) and you had to have 9 stitches. You were such a brave little boy.
I love you with all my heart
; hugs and kisses
; Mommy
Four weeks ago my world came crashing down with a single phone call. Oh how I wish I could turn back the clock and you were still here with us. I think of you everyday and remember all the fun we had together. Do you remember when you decided to drop out of preschool when Laren was born? You told me that you wanted to help me take care of your baby sister. Your were Mommy's little helper. Always asking if you could get me something when I was taking care of Laren. You would run upstairs and grab me a diaper or anything else I needed. I'll treasure those days and every day after. You connected with you sister right away and were never jealous. I should rejoice in the 25 years that God gave. I still get upset because I think he took you too early. I wanted to see you get married; have a child and grow up to be a husband and father. You had such an intelligent mind and loving heart. I will never forget your Angel Date of 08/08/2008. I know you are up in heaven, looking down on all of your loved ones. I feel your presence and your love. Please help us all to get through this difficult time. With all my love, Mommy
You are missed so much Christopher. I'll never forget waking up in the morning, when you and Jason were in high school, and seeing the white plastic chair outside your window. It was quite obvious that you had snuck out in the middle of the night. I would tell Jason to let you know I was watching you!!!
Every time I hear a belt in a car squeeking, I think of you with the white Escort! Remember that summer your mom and I were off and we mowed and weedeatted down at the creek? Thank you Christopher for all of my memories. Please help all of us get through this rough time. We talk about you every day. You are always with us. Every night we look up at the sky and you are the bright star. We know that you have given us signs you are still here. Please don't stop. I love you and miss you. Aunt KK
